Looking at the calendar is depressing. Time passes too fast, I never have enough time to do everything that I want to.

As I write this, I’m uploading my assignment’s videos onto Youtube. The past week has been hectic. I’ve been getting quite sick of everything. It’s all such a chore and incredibly troublesome to learn to use. It makes me begin to wonder about my ambitions. Do I really want to go down this route? I don’t think I’ll ever detest gaming. Gaming is fun. But game programming is horrendous. Perhaps once I become more adept at it, I’ll think otherwise.

I do enjoy game design though. I have no problems imagining and visualizing epic plots and stories, as well as gameplay. If you ask me to draw them out or model them though, then no way. Anyway, that’s for CSCI346, Game Development. My other module this term is CSCI236, which is 3D modeling and animation with Lightwave 3D.

Which I have begun to really dislike. I haven’t been able to get comfortable with the program at all. Totally unlike working with programs like Photoshop and Flash. Steep learning curve I suppose. What irritates me is when even after following instructions by the letter, I still can’t accomplish some of the things mentioned in those instructions. Modeling is another horrendous thing. But once you master it, those great CG movies and cutscenes won’t feel so far away anymore. I want to be able to create stuff like that one day.

I have my IPPT coming up soon, and I haven’t been in shape for 2 years. I need to lose the belly and start getting some of that muscle from NS days back.

I haven’t played WoW in quite some time, because I’ve been so busy. I feel like I’m getting left behind again, and reading those articles about the new expansion makes me feel like I’m even further away from the game that I used to be so obsessed with.